Here I Am..This..is Me...

Angry....? Anger is one of the most destructive forces in the world..it destroys relationships... friendships and makes your life a hell to live in.... I have exprienced anger in many forms and many ways,I have experienced in my friends, family and within myself...and ultimately realised that it yields nothing...but takes a lot away from you!!! You lose your sleep over a wrongdoing someone did to you,a promise not fulfilled,a job not done... and help not given in time...and you brew that anger within your body and believe me it's not a healthy sign.... These feelings buld over time and come out in many other ways as illnesses,heart attacks and nervous breakdowns... Take my word..I have suffered many a time,for my anger and have paid dearly for it... I was unbearable,and soft-tempered,but over the past few months have slowed my motor-mouth and let other's speak,I don't retaliate immediately ...but do so over time..... I have lost a few friends,loved one's and rubbed shou...

Well Well..Well... Holidays...come and go..but this week was a special ...much awaited holiday... One week,paid leave phew.....wat a relief....it's so nice that one could be at home,spend time with Mom and Viggy...and of course my dearest Lucky.... Went to Pratakivagana Devi Temple in Shollinganallur.....and took good darshan.....of the goddess....Hope that she gives some blessings our way... I needed this rest and rejuvination to make me get back on my feet... the past one and half years have been a roller coaster...ride..when I never stopped to think and never wanted to take rest until I became a Permanent Employee,just to prove that I had it in me.... In many ways...my father is responsible for my success..... He pushed me in unknown directions and tested my Strength and See where I am here...today... I wouldn't in my wildest of dreams ever imagined...I a dentist would be a Teller some day!!! Life sure takes strange turns and oppurtunities come in many disguises...Its upto y...

My Life is as normal as anyone else's ....... I am a normal indian girl with hopes and stars in the eyes... Though many a dream has been shattered...many a times I have strived for ...things beyond reach.... There are many times I have wanted to cry....Why me...Why am I the only one suffering.... Then I see an homeless man on the road,a handless girl walking to work...a blind man crossing the road...and it's then when I stop griping.... and get on with my life...... You see I am much more blessed and much more luckier than the street kids... I have a home,a family,a dog and a pair of goldfish abeit the fish died recently.................. But....What more can one ask for... Aaah,.....Love....is what I want today at this point of time....I want someone to come and sweep me off my feet,and care for me day in and day out...though this kinda of stuff..only exists in fairytales.... But a girl can sure wish can't she......... Enjoy every day as it's never going to come...back...

Ho come on....everyone gets married,has kids...and has a life... then why me...why am I single? Is it fate or a cruel way of life...to deprive me of happiness of married life...the happiness of having a husband to care for me.... I miss all that joys that comes with a married woman,it's not just having someone to pick up and drop from and to office,I miss the companionship that comes with  sharing your life with someone,so close,so near...that you feel that your heartbeats are  one....your souls are one...and there is no distinction.....in your individualities.. Why is God troubling me...so much...Why is god testing me...so much.... Don't I deserve a chance at marriage ....or am I destined to be alone....forever...???

Chennai......Our Singara Chennai.... oooooh....I really drool for my city... Given a chance I would really die here in Chennai itself... You see I was born in Chennai in Military Hospital in Nandambakam, and since that day I have been returning here for some reason or other....... We have it all the culture,the IT Corridor,the BPO'S ... and mostly the youngsters..who make chennai a Hot and Happening...Place... I have lived in Chennai since 96 and since then I have grown from a schoolgirl to college rowdy and then a polished Dentist.....and now... a Banker... My Chennai has given me all... The Countless Coffee Day's ....the Marina Beach trips... the Vadapalani Temple.....Inox,Spencers...... I have been there...seen it all... Who can forget Citi Center...my weekend hangout...where me and mom had uncountable sandwiches and KFC'S.... I love the feeling of family and togetherness....that I get here.... I have seen many cities of the world...but Never had the feel of Home... Chen...

Why does the day begin so silent for me... Why doesn't the sun shine...so bright.. Isn't there....a ray of hope... Isn't there....a chance for scope? Life seems so dull without you here... Life isn't life if you don't care.... I want to live my life with you.... Somewhere I hope that you love me too... Why does the day begin so silent for me.... Why doesn't the sun shine so bright????? I hear every footstep hoping it's you... I strain to hear every word just to hear your voice... I want to be with you,I want to be your life... Life isn't life without you here.... If I want to live,I want to live my life with you..... Is it the magic of your love that has made me so????? Is it the care and warmth that you have shown that has made me glow????? Why does the day begin so silent for me.... Why doesn't the sun shine so bright..... I want to be there...in sickness and health... I want to be there ,...in poorness and wealth.... I want to share every moment w...

Hmmm... Another...Guy  Another Day...again a false start....no beginnning..!!! Mom had seen a so called engineer, for me and we are all pumped up to meeting him,then on the last minute,they say nopes... the boy wants to work in Haryana... and isn't coming down south for next 2 years... Wooosh...again my dreams get squashed and broken down to pulp... Come on..why is it..that We girl's have to be to only one's to give up a job or get a transfer to accomadate the boy's will?  Hmmm...? Huh Huh? Isn't the girl's career of any importance...? Are we just made to marry,and have kids and play house-house? I don't feel that is my goal in life...I mean that I do want to marry, have a husband...have children and set up a home... But not at the cost of my career and definately I am never going to give up my job...!! No sire' never in the 100 years...come on .. Daddy has finally managed to made me stand up on my two little  princess feet and face the world.. and I am ...