Here I Am..This..is Me...

Life is the same old routine... same job,same colleagues,same ICICI Velachery.. Nothing ever changes ...does it... Life seems to have lost it's spark and seems to have not much meaning... The Festival of Lights is just around the corner..and yet It holds no meaning... The emptiness and the loneliness...seems to continue inside of me... I have my lovely mom and dad,still something seems missing.. I can't put my finger on it..but it's amiss... I try to keep myself busy in work,and listening to music... I try to make friends however difficult it is... Meet new people..read new books...... There is always something..my eyes search.. What is it....and why am I unable to pinpoint it... but the pain refuses to go away...... Maybe it's the failed engagement in March or the failed marriage alliances... or is the fact that I am just growing old... I think only god can answer my questions... and I wonder why he's taking so long..to come up with an good answer...

I have never loved like this before... These words may not seem true to you... But,I have never loved anyone the way I loved you.. There are days when I shed a single tear ... The tears are when I remember you... There are days when I feel the pain so much that it's too much to bear... There are days when I fear going out in the world.. knowing that you will not be there.... Just wanted to let you know... I have never loved anyone but you... Time seems to have no meaning... Life shows no signs of healing... There are days when my heart aches for you... There are no days when I don't miss you... These days this pain is too much for me to bear... The days seem so listless,the nights seem so lonely.... Just wanted to let you know... I have never loved anyone but you... I haven't given my heart to anyone.... In fear of having it broken ....once again I have never been able to get over you... The feeling of your touch,the gentleness of your caress... The softness of your voice w

Have you ever had a feeling that enough is enough... Life isn't fair,or life isn't going the way it is supposed to be... . Life isn't supposed to go your way...my dear...Life takes it's own course... Life isn't fair...It isn't bad either.... It's the way you take it... Smile and grin and bear it... Hold on for a little longer.... Life will show it's wonderful as you want it..to be... I have been fortunate to have enjoyed so many lovely years of my life... I have wonderful parents,a lovely brother and a cute dog who hasn't left my side past 16 years... I have enjoyed my childhood as and when Dad was in the navy, Have travelled the world.... Been to beautiful places like Mumbai,Delhi and Singapore and New Zealand.... Thanks to dad... Being a defence kid has it's benefits,we can adjust anywhere in the world.... We can outshine anyone.... We can definately do much better than the other person can.. It makes us Independent...and makes us responsible..