Here I Am..This..is Me...

Life is the same old routine... same job,same colleagues,same ICICI Velachery.. Nothing ever changes ...does it... Life seems to have lost it's spark and seems to have not much meaning... The Festival of Lights is just around the corner..and yet It holds no meaning... The emptiness and the loneliness...seems to continue inside of me... I have my lovely mom and dad,still something seems missing.. I can't put my finger on it..but it's amiss... I try to keep myself busy in work,and listening to music... I try to make friends however difficult it is... Meet new people..read new books...... There is always something..my eyes search.. What is it....and why am I unable to pinpoint it... but the pain refuses to go away...... Maybe it's the failed engagement in March or the failed marriage alliances... or is the fact that I am just growing old... I think only god can answer my questions... and I wonder why he's taking so long..to come up with an good answer...

I have never loved like this before... These words may not seem true to you... But,I have never loved anyone the way I loved you.. There are days when I shed a single tear ... The tears are when I remember you... There are days when I feel the pain so much that it's too much to bear... There are days when I fear going out in the world.. knowing that you will not be there.... Just wanted to let you know... I have never loved anyone but you... Time seems to have no meaning... Life shows no signs of healing... There are days when my heart aches for you... There are no days when I don't miss you... These days this pain is too much for me to bear... The days seem so listless,the nights seem so lonely.... Just wanted to let you know... I have never loved anyone but you... I haven't given my heart to anyone.... In fear of having it broken ....once again I have never been able to get over you... The feeling of your touch,the gentleness of your caress... The softness of your voice w...

Have you ever had a feeling that enough is enough... Life isn't fair,or life isn't going the way it is supposed to be... . Life isn't supposed to go your way...my dear...Life takes it's own course... Life isn't fair...It isn't bad either.... It's the way you take it... Smile and grin and bear it... Hold on for a little longer.... Life will show it's wonderful as you want it..to be... I have been fortunate to have enjoyed so many lovely years of my life... I have wonderful parents,a lovely brother and a cute dog who hasn't left my side past 16 years... I have enjoyed my childhood as and when Dad was in the navy, Have travelled the world.... Been to beautiful places like Mumbai,Delhi and Singapore and New Zealand.... Thanks to dad... Being a defence kid has it's benefits,we can adjust anywhere in the world.... We can outshine anyone.... We can definately do much better than the other person can.. It makes us Independent...and makes us responsible.....

"If an egg is broken from outside force – LIFE ENDS; If an egg breaks from WITHIN – LIFE BEGINS… GREAT things always begins from WITHIN." - Unknown "Your beliefs become your thoughts. Your thoughts become your words. Your words become your actions. Your actions become your habits. Your habits become your values. Your values become your destiny" - Mahatma Gandhi "One person with a belief is equal to a force of ninety-nine who have only interests." - John Stuart Mill "Youth is not a time of life - it is a state of mind. It is not a matter of red cheeks, red lips and supple knees. It is a temper of the will; a quality of the imagination; a vigor of the emotions; it is a freshness of the deep springs of life. Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity, of the appetite for adventure over a life of ease. This often exists in a man of fifty, more than in a boy of twenty. Nobody grows old by merely living a number of years; people grow ...

You were born with all the tools to allow you to succeed. You were born with all the potential to succeed, you can achieve any goal you want... or can you? When you were born you had no negative thoughts. No Limiting Beliefs. No self doubts. You could do anything. But on your journey through life, you started to lose sight of that potential. You started to doubt yourself. You started to let negative thoughts fill your mind. Maybe somebody told you that you can't succeed or that life is hard and you believed them. You started to develop limiting beliefs and you began to think you no longer have the potential to succeed. You may even believe that you were not born to succeed, or worse, that you were born to suffer. The truth is you still have all that potential, you've just buried it, you've dismissed it and you've let negative thinking, limiting beliefs and self doubt convince you that you can't or won't succeed. So how do you unlock the potential that you were b...

Sometimes we feel that some people have outgrown us,or is it Life itself outgrows itself.. There are some people who we feel can be our friends forever...then there are some friends who we feel that we don't have anything in common,after a certain period of time... As we grown up,or go ahead in life...we don't need certain relationships or friendships...and these seem too much or very high maintainance to even say a hai or hello....Life isn't fair in this way... I guess it's life's own stark reality....because there is no forever and ever..... Atleast in this fast paced life..... Some persons move out by misunderstandings...some by transfers,some just because we don't need to speak any more... Such people bring shudders to one's thought...when I meet them... I find nothing in common...in our friendship with such persons... Is it that I am being too choosy or is it , Life's way of saying that you have outgrown these kinds of people... I guess it's tim...

How is that I feel lonely when I have everything.... my family beside me,and many more things that others can only dream of....? Inspite of all this... Why is it that my heart feels empty and loneliness tugs at my heart and pain in inevitable... It's the knawing pain that I haven't settled in life and i am a old relic, no more marketable in the "marriage market" that hurts me more... than anything. No one has said anything to me that you are so old or why is it that you are still unmarried... But everyone does talk in hushed whispers.... That this girl is still unmarried,and something must be wrong with her, maybe her horoscope is bad...etc etc...and that pains me a lot... come on...I never chose my horoscope...I am not responsible for what good planets or bad planets are born with...thats the play of the stars.. how can I set that right.... I don't even have supportive relatives who take any initiative to find a sutiable match for me..they only know to talk and c...