Here I Am..This..is Me...

Emotional attachment to worldly things.... Even to persons are the gravest and the ultimate mistake we make in our lives....Whenever we are in a relationship,be it with friends or family members,we tend to make a bond which we feel with each other . We expect the relationship to stand the test of time and we expect to grow and mature in that so called relationships...... Then how come we become so emotionally attached and involved into one and another,that we tend to cling to the bonds when they may not exist so clearly and we tend to hold on in the fear that the bonds may break???????? Emotional attachment gives us a sense of togetherness and makes us feel that we are not alone in this big bad...world,that we are close to someone who makes us feel happy,that someone worries that we don't come home in time......someone is waiting for us for dinner..... There's always someone who you can pinpoint in your life like that,it can be a father,a mother,a friend....a lover.... Then why...

Friends...Are..For Lifetime.. F.R.I.E.N.D.S Who do we call as a friend? is it..someone..who we share or someone..we care? Who do we call.. when we need someone..there..?????????? Someone who will not... make a fuss..when u call..up 3AM in the morning... When you just can't sleep and need someone to talk...??????? and mayb just discuss.. the weather in london..or the rain in spain??????? Someone..who shares your dreams... and worries..whether you would get there... and Reach the Stars... A Friend is also someone..who is there.. to give you a push when ur down... and says....go on give ur your best shot.. and there right behind you if you fall.......... Someone..who stands.. by you no matter..wat the world..says.. No matter if you in the wrong.. they still refuse to leave ur side... Who do we call as a Friend??????????? Someone who Shows you the right path.. when you are in the wrong... Someone who tells..you now... Buddy this is the Real deal... Someone..who says..well.. i don't...

oh how can i explain..how much i love..you? How can i say how much you...mean to me? For it isn't easy for me to say.."I Love You" Is it..the sound of your voice.. that makes..me love you? Is it the little things..you do? I can't explain wat made me love you... But all i know is..that..i truely do... But it's still difficult for me to say "I love you" My love for you... Oh how can i explain how much i love...you? Is it the fact that i yearn for your time? y do i feel you are so..near yet so apart.. My love for you... Transcends...Time and Distance... and I End up dreaming of you... and I secretly hope that.. somewhere..you are thinking of me too... My love for you.. My eyes...scan to see..your face in a crowd... My ears...strain to hear the sound of your voice... My heart..beats..as one when am near..you.. Infact..i don't hear my heart.. I think i hear yourz... My love for you... Our love can't be explained... Our love can't be measured... It...

Angry....? Anger is one of the most destructive forces in the world..it destroys relationships... friendships and makes your life a hell to live in.... I have exprienced anger in many forms and many ways,I have experienced in my friends, family and within myself...and ultimately realised that it yields nothing...but takes a lot away from you!!! You lose your sleep over a wrongdoing someone did to you,a promise not fulfilled,a job not done... and help not given in time...and you brew that anger within your body and believe me it's not a healthy sign.... These feelings buld over time and come out in many other ways as illnesses,heart attacks and nervous breakdowns... Take my word..I have suffered many a time,for my anger and have paid dearly for it... I was unbearable,and soft-tempered,but over the past few months have slowed my motor-mouth and let other's speak,I don't retaliate immediately ...but do so over time..... I have lost a few friends,loved one's and rubbed shou...

Well Well..Well... Holidays...come and go..but this week was a special ...much awaited holiday... One week,paid leave phew.....wat a relief....it's so nice that one could be at home,spend time with Mom and Viggy...and of course my dearest Lucky.... Went to Pratakivagana Devi Temple in Shollinganallur.....and took good darshan.....of the goddess....Hope that she gives some blessings our way... I needed this rest and rejuvination to make me get back on my feet... the past one and half years have been a roller coaster...ride..when I never stopped to think and never wanted to take rest until I became a Permanent Employee,just to prove that I had it in me.... In many ways...my father is responsible for my success..... He pushed me in unknown directions and tested my Strength and See where I am here...today... I wouldn't in my wildest of dreams ever imagined...I a dentist would be a Teller some day!!! Life sure takes strange turns and oppurtunities come in many disguises...Its upto y...

My Life is as normal as anyone else's ....... I am a normal indian girl with hopes and stars in the eyes... Though many a dream has been shattered...many a times I have strived for ...things beyond reach.... There are many times I have wanted to cry....Why me...Why am I the only one suffering.... Then I see an homeless man on the road,a handless girl walking to work...a blind man crossing the road...and it's then when I stop griping.... and get on with my life...... You see I am much more blessed and much more luckier than the street kids... I have a home,a family,a dog and a pair of goldfish abeit the fish died recently.................. But....What more can one ask for... Aaah,.....Love....is what I want today at this point of time....I want someone to come and sweep me off my feet,and care for me day in and day out...though this kinda of stuff..only exists in fairytales.... But a girl can sure wish can't she......... Enjoy every day as it's never going to come...back...

Ho come on....everyone gets married,has kids...and has a life... then why me...why am I single? Is it fate or a cruel way of life...to deprive me of happiness of married life...the happiness of having a husband to care for me.... I miss all that joys that comes with a married woman,it's not just having someone to pick up and drop from and to office,I miss the companionship that comes with  sharing your life with someone,so close,so near...that you feel that your heartbeats are  one....your souls are one...and there is no distinction.....in your individualities.. Why is God troubling me...so much...Why is god testing me...so much.... Don't I deserve a chance at marriage ....or am I destined to be alone....forever...???