Here I Am..This..is Me...

One month..a whole one month has gone by in this new year... and already the year seems to be a old one.. as the charm of the new year has gone by and things have moved on... Atleast I seem to have moved on... I broke up with someone who I felt I was meant to be, when I realised he was not making a commitment to me... Men what happens to them when, We say marriage....They scoot... The best way to get rid of a guy is to either say you want to get married or say I think I might be pregnant... nothing makes them run faster than a scared deer. They run with their tail between their legs... aka in this case its their so called manhood...which isn't much to talk about as many of them aren't men... Men are always scared of commitment....... Just scaredy cats,who are ultimately going to break your heart..... In my career,too I seem to have moved on.. I recently completed 3 years in ICICI,which is a great achievement in itself,considering the fact three years ago, I ...

In Life...many things are just not meant to be... like the fact that I may never have a "love marriage", as I envisioned since I was a little girl.. Maybe such things are really where they belong Ummm...in fairy tales are someone else's life... I will never get such a handsome prince charming and never have someone to sweep me off my feet... it seems it's just going to be old me...f or sometime now,and I will be married off to a older man maybe 40 year old... just because my parent's feel that guy is the best they can get for me at this age.... It hurts that in the 21st century... I have no choice in my life partner and I should be forced to marry whomsoever my parent's find fit.... This is the worst turn my life can take... Oh wait my life was wasted the moment he walked into my life... and yeah then I dumped him cos he couldn't commit to marriage... Some men are such bas?*$*$*$ds because,all is ok when you are dating and roaming the ...

Have you ever got the feeling that life is wizzing past you... at breakneck speed so fast that your entire life is gone out of control... Well then it's time that you picked up the pieces left of your life.. and regained control of what you seemed to have lost.. Live life every day,as if it is going to be your last... You never know when you may die,it can be the very next second... So use every second to live a life... because life isn't a dress rehersal and we get no playbacks... we have to live in "on air" all the time...no freeze frames or no flashbacks... This is life...tomorrow when in the twilight of your life on the deathbed... you aren't going to remember the good things that happened... You will only regret the risks that you never took,and the things that you never tried... I believed all things in life should be tried atleast once...be it love,marriage,alcohol, drugs or anything for that matter....Try it and atleast experience the feeling....

Have you ever got the feeling that there is no one for you.. Life is hard and no one cares for you. Life is such a pain to be lived,Well I am in that situation... My own family is selfish and cunning.... Nobody wants my happiness.. All are interested in their own selfish goals and most importantly money. My dad weighs everything in lakhs of rupees and anything less than that isn't good enough for him.... No one cares for my feelings and pays attention to me... I have no one..No family..No friends.. All the world is a cruel place... and by giving so much to people.. I haven't gained anything... Life has been bad to me at every step...I face failures and brickbats at every point in time... My own family insults me and puts me down at every single oppurtunity possible... So I hate my so called life..and don't wish to live here.... I am born alone and I will die alone....

It's the Happy time of the year... The New year has dawned upon us... My life remains the same....yet seems so different... It was a year of false starts,wrong endings... Good beginnings and happy meetings.... Many people walked into my life and made it special.. They have been soulmates as friends and lovers... People who have always understood me and remained by my side... Many have also walked away....never to return again... But...then.... Life finds fun ways to make me smile... Many incidents happened past year...that changed my views about life and made me grow ahead..... Life is about making new choices and learning new things... There are many things I want to do in this coming new year... MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS-2011 Make new friends,keep the old ones... Try to balance home and work... Give more time to my parent's as I don't know how long they will be around to love me and care for me... Give more love and happiness to people around me... Sh...