Here I Am..This..is Me...

Love is a many splendoured thing... A emotion that has always fascinated man,for time immemorial... Love has always interested me,since I was a little girl, reading fairy tales and storybooks.... Was always hoping to find my prince in shining armour or  hoping that when I closed my eyes that,my prince  would wake me up with a kiss..from my sleep... Over the years as I grew,I had many various thoughts how love  should be or how marriage should be. All that stopped just a few months ago, when I had to go to India for my brother's marriage, and  had to leave Ganesh behind.... Just being away from him,for just 48 days... I realized that Love isn't something we need to seek... it's just like happiness is within us... Love is my Ganesh...I am not being too mushy or poetic... Love is my husband..,and nothing before,nothing ever after will be like him... Sure we fight,sometimes we want to slit each other's throats... But most of the time,we are so coochie...coo.. That most p...

Life as I know it is a great struggle... Sometimes we struggle with our emotions,sometimes with our feelings, and  many a time we try to struggle with with words... Simply expressing our feelings becomes so much difficult and upsetting,that we try to avoid it, So much that we try to escape communication with our closest and  dearest friends and family members... we prefer to escape and run away rather than face our fears.... Why is it that we can judge others behaviors and not look inside our heart to see  how we behave badly..and burn ourselves without expressing our feelings... Maybe it's just our ego blinding us,or is it that  we are so stubborn to bow down in front of even our loved ones... We bow down in front of God isn't it,in our temples,churches,and mosques.... then why cannot  we bow down and  leave our ego and bow before our parents,husbands or wives.... A simple act of compromise.... It can mend a relationship to a greater extent than holdi...

Life as they call is a journey as everyone says.... Experiences change me,and will continue to change my perception of the world.. I have met many people over the years,and made new friends.. Travelled to many new places and learnt new cultures. My life is shaped with such rich experiences.... This year 2014, in particular is a Travel year...as I should otherwise call it a Globetrotting year... Well you can call me a Global citizen....which in many ways I fit to this description very nicely. You see I was born in Chennai,India....and brought up all over India... Lived in Delhi,Mumbai,Port Blair.... and oh yes the United States of America when I was very young.... Have been traveling since I was a three month old..,.and yes have been flying since then.... I love flying,the excitement of checking in,climbing the aircraft.....taking off...landing... Everything excites me and like a kid in a candy store I awe at the miracle of flight... This year I have travelled from Orlando to Chennai, C...

Today was the day I was the saddest for the rest of my life... My parent's and brother have as usual turned against me which is nothing new... My life is turned upside down, My doctors have said that we can't conceive normally,and that we have to go through a lot of medical treatments to conceive...  Our whole world came crashing down.... I have to go through Laproscopic Surgery. I was supposed to have the treatment here in Chennai...  But I have no support from my parent's as they are sitting as usual on their high horses.....  The Other side,my mother in law cant come and help me as she doesn't want to.I have no one at this moment of time. At this time,My dearest Love of my life...my Husband comes into the picture... He is the one who has held my hand in my pregnancy and miscarriage.... He is the one who can protect me and support me much more than anyone else... I blindly trust him. Since I have no one,I can't even expect many things... But th...

My little angel.... Why did you come so suddenly and leave me empty handed one day.. Just yesterday you were in my being and today you decided to leave... My little one,I am blessed that you chose me to be in my womb even if it was for a very short time..I will always love and cherish your presence in our life.. Life just isn't fair and it doesn't go as planned.... One day we are full of hopes and dreams and then one day all those dreams come crashing down.... My little one,my little baby... Appa and Amma will always love and miss you... every day that we are alive.. Even today you are just alive in our memories and  will always be our first born... We love you so much my dear....

It seemed just yesterday,that I was praying to God to gift me a lovely gift for my Birthday.... and God listened..God has his reasons for every delay and every thing happens for a reason... It was just another normal Thursday of Spring...the day I realised....that I am going to have a baby... and suddenly..things seemed so clear... Why god had delayed the baby's coming... Why god wanted us to come to Orlando... Why god wanted me to quit my hopeless job at the bank... It seems he has a answer for everything..... Suddenly everything seemed so crystal clear....and life seemed purposeful and It had a meaning.... Baby dearest...I welcome you to our world... Hope that you have a nice nine month stay in my womb,and  I hope that I give you all the nutrition and foods that help you grow strong and healthy... I will love and cherish you every single day ever since you formed in my womb  and became a invisible motivation force for me... I feel so much love and happines...

Marriage ......has made me a much more balanced human being.. the sharing of a life with another person has taught me many things like caring,love,gratitude and so many other wonderful things...People used to say get married and your life will change and you will begin to enjoy life after marriage,that time I used to scoff at such ideas....Now when I myself took a plunge into holy matrimony,it has made me realise that it's not a bad deal after all.. Having someone waiting for you when you come tired after a long day at office,Someone who calls many times a day just to find out how you are,how is you day going on,makes me feel important as much as my mother used to do when I was in my home...My husband is a very kool,and calm person,who is very much a family guy,and he is most happy among known faces and close family members... He cares a lot for every minute details of my day and routine and makes a extra effort to make life easier for me everyday..........I am fortunate to ha...